Photo credit: the amazingly talented Allison Stamm
As I was yet again humbled (and quite sore) on my yoga mat yesterday I could not get the song “Day One” by Matthew West out of my head! It goes a little something like this…
” I wish I wasn’t wishing anymore
Wish I could remember that nobody’s keeping score
I’m tired of throwing pennies in a well
I gotta do something
Here goes nothin’
It’s day one of the rest of my life
It’s day one of the best of my life
I’m marching on to the beat of a brand new drum
Yeah, here I come
The future has begun
Do you ever get a song stuck in your head and you have no idea why because you haven’t even heard it recently?? That was definitely the case in this situation!
I never could have anticipated the flood of emotions I would feel moving home to Pennsylvania. I was so excited and sure this was the time! Now I sit here wondering why my husband and I decided now was the time to come back. Why didn’t we just stay a little longer? When things aren’t going as planned I have to sit back and wonder why the rush?? What were we thinking?? But then I remember EVERYTHING happens for a reason and God’s timing is ALWAYS perfect! Wow is that a hard pill to swallow sometimes?!
Another month just passed marking the 5th month my husband and I have been trying to conceive. Every month that passes gets more and more disheartening. I have no idea how people try for years!! I was convinced that by the time we moved home we would be expecting our first. This was one of the deciding factors for moving. We didn’t want to start our family away from our friends and family. Now, every cycle is just a reminder that that’s not happening for us.
I am ready now to leap out of the slump, commit to healthy eating, yoga and building a business that I love and am passionate about. Here goes nothing! The next 30 days are mine and I plan to turn this frown upside!!